Sometimes Moms Just Need to Vent

I know it's not very zen to say I'm losing it, but I am.  It is now 10:00pm.  I started putting my baby to sleep at 7:00.  When he had colic I would rock and hold him and he would cry himself to sleep, now he just won't go to sleep.  I rock and rock wait til he is out and then put him down.  He woke up every 10-15 minutes.  I must of put him to sleep 10 times. I'm exhausted.  Every good intention I had of doing anything around the house just went out the window.  What is making things worse is my son is still healing from surgery, so I can't sleep train him, let him cry, I'm trying my best to soothe him, but his sleep habits are getting worse everyday.  He's old enough now, but my hands are tied.  I feel so helpless.  I want to show him the way to self-soothe, but for now I just have to wait.  I'm tired and frustrated. I don't feel like talking to my husband when he gets home, I haven't been able to get any work done, I don't feel like calling my friends back.  All day long I feel like I just spend my day putting him to sleep.  I love my son, and now he won't be baby for long, but I need this to end.  My back is killing me from carrying him in a sling all day and my body is sore from rocking and bouncing and contorting my body to breastfeed.  I need a break.  All moms do.  Most of the time the key is to stay positive, but sometimes staying sane is giving yourself a chance to vent.  That's what I'm doing-it's ok to say I've had it.   As long as it gives me some relief so I have the energy to start over tomorrow.  Who am I kidding...enough energy to get through the night.